January 2010
18 posts
in the moment (retitled from 'chopped n skrewed)
the verbal still lingers in my head
i’ve been throwed since then
and it’s hard to get to bed
cuz it’s so new
i’d rather just…
but that might be rather rude
you rearranged my whole attitude
(i silently whisper to myself) it’s true
and it’s true between us…
between u…
between i…
and beyond the me…
it’s all the above
and...
unfamiliar you
Saturday 29 November, 2008
Mood: curious
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural
there’s a whole world outside my window
& all i see is you
and i’m curious about the unknown
yet you know me
& i question how
you tell me, “it’s not polite to question”
but then i think
& i’m told:
daydreaming causes nightmares…now experience the experience...
i (pt. 1) & i (revisited)
Saturday 29 November, 2008
i
Mood: imaginative
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural
i speak of dreams i’m much too afraid of embracing
i simply dream
& i want it all…
Saturday 29 November, 2008
i…(revisited)
Mood: inquisitive
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural
perhaps i dream
because i am favoured…
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From Decrease to Increase
There’s a man struggling to his feet. Too many fragments & broken pieces. Unanswered questions. Yet, conversation ceases.
Attempting to be drained of all his fears. So he writes in code in order to mask what’s behind his tears. Words falling upon deaf ears. Sacrificing self for others. He’s wise beyond his years.
He wants to point fingers but too much anger lingers....
Ace In The Hole
Once you have an experience with a certain person…one that is deeply intimate & for whatever reason that experience comes to an end, what is the purpose of keeping in contact with that person once you’ve moved on to another intimate experience with another person? What is it that you’re holding on to in regards to that person that you can’t let go of for the sake of the person you’re already...
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Emotionally Inve$ted
Sometimes I think too much. Sometimes I’m skeptical of motives. Sometimes it’s just this funny feeling that there’s more than meets the eye. I in return, invest emotionally into what’s going on. So what’s going on? If you tell me, the only things I can promise are: sincerity, honesty, positivity, and an alternate view of your current situation.
I’m invested...
Statement Withdrawal
There’s a responsibility I have in life. Not only to myself but to you as well. I look at a lot of things in life in such an obverse way that I realize others don’t see, aren’t willing to see (or be respectful of). My responsibility in all of this is recognizing to whom/what audience I’m speaking to. I have to realize that we’re not all on the same level. I’m in...
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Cheap Talk
I’m under the impression, many people talk just to be heard. While they have your attention, there’s not much that really comes out of their mouths. I mean, there’s the ubiquitous, “I keep it real” or the various sayings that sound positive (ie, change, I need a good man/woman, I don’t have time for drama, etc). The reality is that the shit you’re saying,...
Justification
This feeling won’t go away but in many ways, I’m ok. I still feel like I left some things unsaid…
I still feel like I need to justify myself as a good man…as a good person…as KT or BF, as Big Bro, as a son, as a friend…as a man. I feel like people who I’ve known or met thru others, think I’m a bad person…like I did something wrong. I honestly...
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